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Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Tue, 28 Nov 2006 14:04:09 GMT

Every year around this time I hear the same thing, Jesus is the reason for the season, but often the people that are saying the words are the ones out there supporting the idea that Christmas is all about themselves. How many times have we said that giving gifts is how we show love for the season, yet to get the gifts we show hate to others. I have come to realize that the wrong idea of Christmas was in my head as well, for I would love to give gifts, but mostly to impress people on how well I could find the perfect gift. But in the long run I was just being all the more self-centered, and in that way Christmas has become a "me" holiday in stead of a "Him" holiday.

It’s rather ironic how the one time of year that we are supposed to be extra reminded to be loving and cheerful, we are hate full and nasty. We see the same year after year people racing to the stores getting low prices, people cutting in front of people, people yelling at people.

Christmas is the day we as Christians celebrate Christ’s birth. Usually pastors read about the nativity, you know the classic Marry, Joseph, shepherds. But what about john 3: 16 – God loved us enough that he sent his son to show us how to love and in showing us the ultimate love he told us to do the same. Now don’t get me wrong I’m no scrooge, We should rejoice around this time for the awesome love that God has given us through Jesus. Rejoice in giving, and letting other people see what God has done for you, so they too can share in the joy. That’s the kind of love that God has said to give, it’s the kind that money cant buy. So just remember when your out in JC pennies and they have a thirty percent off on the one pair of jeans that you’ve been hunting high and low for, and some lady takes it from you, remember what this seasons all about. We are to show love, and remember what this season is truly about.

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Wed, 20 Sep 2006 01:58:12 GMT

STRESS HAPPEND TODAY AHHHHHHHHHHH

Chapter Six

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 02:05:38 GMT

He hung there dangling for a while shaking his chains violently and screaming out in pain as he was being agonized by the demons. but then all of a sudden they all ran away, and a bright light started to descend from above. it was a man dressed in white, he had massive wings and every muscle known (and a few unknown) to man, was built to the maximum. He flew down towards him with the sounds of oceans crashing against the land with every motion of his wing. The angel hovered right beside him and whispered these words into his ear,

"do you believe?"

"yes"

"then here"

The angel placed a seed into his hands and said

"Its from HIM,I must go but do not be afraid HE is on your side."

The angel flew off just as quick as he came. Once again up side down and alone he looked at the gift he was given. A small seed with wait, engravings on it, he looked at it closer, he could barley make out the word. ETERNAL, the one side said and he flipped it over and the other side said , LIFE. Eternal life! He took the seed and swallowed it…. All of a sudden the chains began to shake and his legs where free, but in stead of falling, he was lifted higher by his soul…..

Chapter Five

Sun, 17 Sep 2006 18:52:04 GMT

He tries to stand up to get out of bed but he falls flat on his face. In a daze he looks down to his feet, and they are chained to the bed, all of a sudden his floor falls out from under him and dangles upside down from his bed. Surrounded by darkness he looks around to see if he can find any light, but there is none. A foul voice sounded in the darkness, laughing hysterically,

"I have you now you are mine, and she……. is gone forever"

He hears her voice,,,,,,"save me……. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh" and then it faded into the darkness...

He struggles with his chains to try to get free but it is no use,

He is still dreaming and he cant wake up...

Friday, September 15, 2006

Fri, 15 Sep 2006 00:37:56 GMT

This is an offical anouncement to all readers due to scircumstances unknown to any of you this book has been put on hold sorry

-phil-

Thursday, September 14, 2006

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 01:19:52 GMT

Again at night he sits there discussing this with his friend. They have talked and decided to forget about the dream that it is just a dream and nothing more and that the rest is just a coincidence.

He wakes up the next day sick as a dog and decides to get online. One of his college friends are online so he decides to giver her a ring and see what is going on. She starts to talk with him and they get on the subject of the one from the dream, and it all starts up again, but he decides to do one final thing and then leave it alone....forever

Chapter Three

Wed, 13 Sep 2006 01:39:39 GMT

He sits on his bed typing away on his lap top once again surrounded in darkness he knows he must get some sleep but his thoughts are pouring out. Dream after dream comes this way and what if they are just that, dreams, and nothing more, has he just been a fool to follow such a fantasy, or is this all true, should he for get about the dream that started all this, and just live life like it never happened, like he never met the same person from the dream or found the same place that the dream was located at. I mean should he give up on this one person that’s always on the back of his mind. Not as much in a romantical way, but just trying to figure out if it would work out, trying to imagine what any kind of relationship would be, and resulting in nothing, but it seems that as the days pass its easier and easier to imagine it, but he's scared of the idea, he is afraid that he will get attached and then have the dream to become just a dream, and nothing more. Nothing more than an over active brain in a moment of sleep at a time of coincidence. Most people say follow your dreams, but they mean ambitions, your soul desire, they don't mean your physical dreams. Is he a fool to follow these dreams in search of finding the one God has for him, or is he just making life more difficult for him self.

Chapter Two

Tue, 12 Sep 2006 01:50:25 GMT

he opens his eyes and notices it was dusk and the clouds where closing in on the sunset, but he could see the tops of all the houses, he stands up and realizes that he is in the bell part of the steeple of a church. There is no way to get down. He sits back down in fear that he will loose his balance and fall off. Then all of a sudden he sees these massive dogs climb up the sides of the church smiling and growling as if they are going to have their feast. The three dogs close in one step at a time, he tries to yell for help but that comes out is air, he has no voice. Just right when he curls up into a ball to avoid watching him self get torn open he flies up from his bed in a cold sweat…. another dream ,another nightmare, another mark on the board. what does all this mean he asks himself, as he gets ready for another day of school.

Chapter One

Mon, 11 Sep 2006 01:38:29 GMT

The dark of the room enveloped him as he stayed awake at his computer screen. He sat there wishing to find the answer to his question. But the problem is he could not figure out what that question was. He just knew that there was something that he needed to find out. He looks at the clock and realizes that he needs to get some rest, for tomorrow is school and he has been sick all weekend. But the question still bothers him, what is he searching for, is it what God wants him to do, or maybe its just the fact that he has spread the word so far and he has not yet felt the love surround him, he thinks what is love, he knew the bible said something about it but still how much has he shown the love to other people? Has he really shared love, or just tried effortlessly to spread an answer to all life's problems, maybe he him self must feel the love in it pure form, before he can share it with other people, but why is it so hard to grasp? Why cant he show people the love that saved him from certain death? Maybe his dreams unlock the mysteries of this dilemma, but how much can he trust them? He is afraid to put all his efforts on his one special dream. He thinks back to that night when he had it………..

It was night at his new home with the moon shining brightly, it was spring early summer, his grand mothers mobile home in the drive way, and over the summer sounds he hears his name being called. He's by the edge of the woods and looks over and sees a girl holding his hand, some one he has never met before. They run off into the woods and went to a place unfamiliar to him, he kisses her in the moonlight and love explodes inside of him….

He wondered who this girl was but decided that he must go back to bed because tomorrow is his first day at the new school. The next day when he went to school he sat at his desk, and looked around, and there he saw her, the girl from his dream, standing right there, how can it be? Is it possible to dream about a girl before even meeting her? And if its not a coincidence then what does it mean?

He mulls this over as he has been for a few years ever sconce the dream happened. He wonders after ignoring it for all this time is she really the key of true love. Is she the one he's destined with? Is she the one God has placed for him to help and for her to help him also? Is she the "the one?" or is this dream a white rabbit leading down to disaster, failure, embarrassment, and utter chaos?

Saturday, September 09, 2006

Sat, 09 Sep 2006 21:53:23 GMT

you know what i think i now offically xanga is my hiding place, nobody really reads these anywais, and the ones that do i dont really care cause well, its not that big of deal. but anywais, i feel like im constantly fighting against myself. i dont like it, i feel like im turning into a jerk wich is soemthing far to what i have allwais been. also im embarassed about my confusion, i mean im trying to explain somehting, and i say it wrong, and its just all i dont know, i get really confused. but i feel like im turning into some one whos not me, also theres chorus, i love singing but i do it for fun most of all. but its fun to do this whole chorus thing, group singing is fun, i just dont know the first thing on how to do it properly, i mean u have to sit right stand right breath right exhale right, lol the list goes on. but i guess we will see how it works out.